愛欲與恨意

Love to Have, Love to Hate

1/12

“我想要,卻永遠得不到!”這句童年諄諄教誨中蘊含著真理,不過我會稍作修改,變作:「你越是渴望,得到的可能性就越低。」當你如此渴求某物,以至於願意孤注一擲時,你便會創造出巨大的過剩潛能 (Exceed potential),從而破壞了平衡。平衡力量 (Balanced forces) 便會把你甩到一條連你曾渴望的對象也無法尋到蹤影的生命線 (Life line) 上。

“I want, never gets!” There is truth in this childhood admonition although here I would rephrase it slightly to: “The stronger you want something the less likely you are to get it”. When you want something so much that you are willing to place everything on the cards to get it, you create huge excess potential which destroys balance. Balanced forces can then throw you onto a life line where there is no trace of the object you desired.


2/12

從能量層面來看,一個被慾望所困擾的人,就像一頭狂野的野豬試圖捕捉一隻藍鳥。野豬極度渴望那鳥兒,舔著嘴唇、大聲哼噥、拱土等待,然而鳥兒自然會飛走。反之,若野豬只是在附近閒逛,表現得漠不關心,那麼它就有很大機會能抓住鳥兒的尾巴。

On an energetic level, a person obsessed with desire is like a wild boar trying to catch a blue bird. The boar wants the bird badly, licking its lips, snorting loudly and rooting the ground in anticipation. Naturally, the bird flies away. If on the other hand the boar had simply wandered around somewhere nearby as if indifferent it would have had a good chance of grabbing the bird by the tail.


3/12

慾望可分為三種。第一種是當強烈的慾望化為堅定的「意圖 (Intention)」,推動你不惜一切去獲取某物,此時慾望得以實現,其創造的能量潛能 (Exceed potential) 會因轉化為行動而消散。第二種慾望則是消極且折磨人的,屬於最純粹的過剩潛能 (Exceed potential) 形式,它在能量場中徘徊,如最佳情境下僅浪費身心能量,而最壞情況下則會吸引各種無關的問題。

There are three types of desire. The first is when a strong desire transforms into the determined intention to have something and do whatever is required to get it. Then the desire is fulfilled. The potential created by the desire is dispersed because the energy behind it is fuelled into action. The second type of desire is inactive and tormenting and represents excess potential in its purest form. It lingers in the energy field. In a best case scenario, it wastes the energy of the suffering carrier, and in a worst case scenario attracts all kinds of unrelated problems.


4/12

第三種慾望則最為隱蔽,它會使你對所渴望的事物產生依賴性 (Dependent relationships)。當你賦予渴望的對象極高的「重要性 (Importance)」,這將自動形成一種依賴性 (Dependent relationships) 並創造出強大的過剩潛能 (Exceed potential),進而引發同樣強大的平衡力量 (Balanced forces) 出現。通常,你的思緒會沿著這樣的軌跡運轉:「如果我能得到這個,我的處境將大為改善」、「如果我得不到這個,我的人生將失去意義」、「如果我做到這點,我就能向自己與他人證明我的價值」、「如果我做不到,我就一文不值」、「如果我得到這個,那該多好」、「若得不到將會非常糟糕」……如此一來,一旦你對渴望的對象產生了依賴,你便會被捲入那激烈的漩渦中,最終在掙扎中耗盡自己。而當你意識到所有努力皆白費時,你最終會放下這份慾望,平衡力量 (Balanced forces) 則會恢復均衡,對你的痛苦漠不關心——這正是當慾望被放在天平一側、而其他一切重擔集中於另一側所帶來的後果。

The third kind of desire is the most insidious. This type of desire becomes dependent on the object of the desire. Attaching great significance to the desired object automatically creates a dependent relationship and strong excess potential, which in turn calls into effect equally powerful balanced forces. Usually, the person’s thoughts run along the lines of: “If I achieve this, my situation will improve dramatically”, “If I don’t achieve this, my life will lose all meaning”, “If I do this, I’ll prove to myself and everybody else what I’m worth”, “If I don’t do this, I’m worth nothing”, “If I got this, it would be great”, “It will be terrible if I don’t get this”; and so on. Once you become dependent on the object of your desire you are drawn into such a violent whirlpool that you will exhaust yourself in the struggle. Eventually, when you realise that your efforts have led to nothing you will let go of the desire. Balanced forces will have restored equilibrium remaining completely indifferent to your suffering and all because of a strong attachment to the fulfilment of a desire. This is what happens when a desire is placed on one dish of the scales and absolutely everything else is piled on the other.


5/12

只有第一種慾望才能得到實現,因為在這種慾望中,你將它轉化成一種純粹的意圖 (Intention),不會產生過剩潛能 (Exceed potential)。人們常說天下沒有免費的午餐,一切都需要付出,但事實上,我們只需為自己創造的過剩潛能 (Exceed potential) 付出代價。而在另類空間 (Alternatives space) 中,一切皆免費。既然我們已經在使用這些術語,可以說,缺乏「重要性 (Importance)」以及依賴性關係 (Dependent relationships) 本身,就是實現慾望的「支付方式」。純粹意圖 (Intention) 的能量,便足以將你帶到一條讓所渴望的對象成為現實一部分的生命線 (Life line) 上。關於意圖 (Intention) 的主題,我們稍後再探討;此刻,只需記住,純粹意圖 (Intention) 就是慾望與行動,不帶任何額外的「重要性 (Importance)」。例如,去商店買份報紙就是一種純粹意圖 (Intention),因為這件事毫無障礙。

Only the first type of desire can be fulfilled because desire is transformed into pure intention free of excess potential. It is a common view that there is no such thing as a free lunch and everything has to be paid for. In truth, we pay only for the excess potential we create. In the alternatives space everything is free. Since we are already using these terms, it could be said that absence of importance and dependent relationships are a kind of payment for the fulfilment of desire. The energy of pure intention is all that is required for you to transfer to a life line where the object of desire becomes a part of your reality. We will return later to the subject of intention. For now, we will simply note that pure intention is desire and action without the attribution of importance. For example, going to the shop to buy a newspaper is a pure intention because it is in no way inhibited.


6/12

你對某件事賦予的越高「重要性 (Importance)」,那件事出現問題的機率就越大。如果你對已有之物極度珍視,平衡力量 (Balanced forces) 早晚會把它從你身邊奪走。若你所渴望獲得的東西對你過分重要,除非你降低期望,否則實際獲得它的機率將微乎其微。

The greater an event is valued the more likely it is to fall through in some way. If you attribute huge value to what you have, sooner or later balanced forces will take it from you. If what you want to receive is hugely important to you there is very little chance of you actually getting it unless you lower the stakes.


7/12

例如,你對新車愛不釋手——你會仔細除塵、珍藏,甚至擔心它被劃傷,彷彿在崇拜它。然而,你對新車賦予的巨大「重要性 (Importance)」會創造出過剩潛能 (Exceed potential),因為在信息場的真實現實中,它的實際意義幾乎歸零。平衡力量 (Balanced forces) 很快就會找來一個笨手笨腳的司機來弄壞它,或者因為你過於小心而不小心碰撞。你只需改變對它的態度,把它當作一個普通的物件來看待,則受損的可能性會大大降低。把車看成普通東西,並不意味著你可以粗心大意;你完全可以好好照料一輛車,而不必將它神化。

For example, you are mad about your new car. You blow the dust off it, cherish it, fear it may get scratched and generally worship it. The huge value you place on your car creates excess potential because in the reality of the information field its true meaning is close to nil. Balanced forces will soon find a clumsy driver to cripple your car or you may bump it somewhere by being overly cautious. All you have to do is level out your attitude towards it, treat it as the relatively ordinary object that it is and the chances of it being damaged will be sharply reduced. Treating your car as something ordinary does not mean carelessly. You can take perfectly good care of a car without idolizing it.


8/12

強烈慾望的動態還有另一個面向。許多人認為,只要你非常渴望某物,就一定能得到它,似乎慾望的強度能使你登上那條實現慾望的生命線 (Life line);但實際情況並非如此。若你的慾望變得依賴性 (Dependent relationships),或你如同癲狂般不惜一切代價去追求某物,那麼你內心深處可能根本不相信自己能夠達到目標。這會在你散發的思維能量中產生強烈干擾。如果你不真心相信某事,便會拼命自我說服,從而使過剩潛能 (Exceed potential) 進一步提升。在這種動態下,你的“畢生拼搏”可能永無結果。你唯一能做的,便是降低你對目標的個人「重要性 (Importance)」,以像去商店買報紙那樣輕鬆的方式去實現慾望。

There is another aspect to the dynamics of strong desire. A lot of people believe that if you want something badly enough, you will get it. This would suggest that strength of desire can bring you onto a life line where your desire will be fulfilled but that is not the case. If your desire has become dependent, like a kind of psychosis, or you are hysterically driven to obtain something whatever the cost, then somewhere deep down inside you do not really believe that you can achieve it. This creates “strong interference” in the thought energy you are transmitting. If you do not truly have faith in something, you will try really hard to convince yourself that you can achieve what you want, thereby boosting the level of excess potential even more. With this kind of dynamic there is a risk that your “life-work” could actually take you all your life to achieve. All you can do is reduce the significance your aim has for you personally and set about achieving what you desire in the same manner as you would if you were go to the shop to buy a newspaper.


9/12

對某事的強烈回避慾望,其實就是你對自我或環境中某物不滿的延伸。負面依附越強,產生的過剩潛能 (Exceed potential) 就越大。你越希望避開某事,反而越有可能親身經歷它,因為平衡力量 (Balanced forces) 對恢復平衡的手段沒有偏好:它們要麼將你從面對該事的路徑上拉開,要麼將你推向與其相遇的境地。最好有意識地停止對環境中事物的否定,這樣你就不會先創造出過剩潛能 (Exceed potential)。此外,當你思考那些你努力否定的事物時,你會釋放出與該事物所在生命線 (Life line) 頻率相符的能量;因此,你總會得到那些你愛著卻又恨之入骨的東西。

The strong desire to avoid something is a logical continuation of being dissatisfied either with yourself or with something in your environment. The greater the negative attachment, the more powerful the excess potential will be. The more you want to avoid something the greater the probability that you will experience it because balanced forces have no attachment to the means of restoring balance. They simply have two alternatives which are either to draw you away from encountering the thing you want to avoid or to bring you into contact with it. It is better to consciously stop negating things in your environment so that you do not create excess potential in the first place. But this is not the only consequence of strong negative attachment. When you think about the thing you are negating you radiate energy at the frequency of a life line where that thing is present. You always get the things you love to hate.


10/12

實際上,這就是當你主動希望某事絕不發生時的結果。試想一位男士出席大使館的盛大招待會,現場氛圍莊重、雅致而寧靜,卻突然他開始失控地揮舞雙手、跺腳,大聲嚷嚷著多麼不願被迫立即離開。保安當即趕來,將這位不合時宜的賓客抱下場。儘管這是一個誇張的畫面,但從能量層面來看,負面依附的動態具有同等強度和力量。

In reality, this is what happens when you actively desire for something not to happen. Imagine a man attending a grand reception at an embassy. The atmosphere is formal, refined and sedate. Then the man starts waving his hands about uncontrollably, stamping his feet and screaming desperately how much he would hate to be forced to leave immediately. Naturally, the security guys would appear forthwith, grabbing the strange guest under the arms. The man whines and tries to resist but is nonetheless swiftly escorted out of the building. This is, of course, an exaggerated picture of reality, but on an energetic level the dynamic of negative attachment has the same level of force and intensity.


11/12

再舉一例:午夜時分,你被吵鬧的鄰居吵醒。你迫切想睡,因為天亮要上班,但看來鄰居派對正熱鬧非凡。你越希望他們停下,派對卻越可能持續;你越憤怒,音量便越高,倘若你開始強烈憎恨鄰居,晚間派對只會更頻繁。解決之道在於運用擊敗擺錘 (Pendulum) 的方法:你可以選擇將此情境視作一場戲謔,從而停止擺錘 (Pendulum) 的擺動;或對此置若罔聞,完全不顯示興趣與情感。如此一來,擺錘 (Pendulum) 便會被制伏,且不會創造出新的過剩潛能 (Exceed potential)。請記住,你擁有自由選擇 (Choice) 的權利,並知道如何運用它。很快,鄰居便會安靜下來——事情就是這樣運作的,試著親自體驗吧。

Let us take another example. In the middle of the night you are woken by your noisy neighbours. You really want to sleep because you have to go to work in the morning but it seems like your neighbour’s party is just getting going. The more you want them to stop the more likely the party is to go on for some time. The angrier you get the noisier the party becomes and if you start to hate your neighbours with intensity you can guarantee that late night parties will become more frequent. To solve the problem you can apply the method of defeating or stopping the pendulum. You will stop the pendulum’s sway if you choose to see the situation as a parody. You could also ignore the situation, refusing to show any sign of interest or emotion. Then the pendulum will be defeated and no excess potential is created. Take comfort in the awareness that you have freedom of choice and that you know how to use it. Soon the neighbours will settle down. This is how it works. Try it out for yourself.


12/12

現在,請回想一下,你在生活中究竟給哪些事物賦予了過高的「重要性 (Importance)」,又因此遇到了哪些問題。如果情況糟糕至極,就徹底放下它們的重要性概念,拋開對情境的依賴,並立即開始釋放正能量。狀況越糟,越能讓你體會技法的運作效果,尤其當你感受到巨大損失時,請振作!在這種情況下,平衡力量 (Balanced forces) 站在你這邊,因為它們的任務在於以好事來彌補壞事。事物不可能永遠糟糕,也不可能永遠美好;沒有人能一輩子駕馭著幸運之浪 (Wave of fortune)。試想,如果你曾遭受攻擊、虐待、毆打,所有財物皆被奪走,然後突然有人推來一個袋子,裡面滿滿都是錢——你受傷越深,袋中金錢便越多。

Now you can think back and recognise what things in your life you have attributed excessive importance to and what problems you came up against as a result. If things are genuinely awful, let go of the idea of their importance totally; shake loose your dependency on the situation and start transmitting positive energy right away. The worse things are now, the better, as this will enable you to assess how the technique works if you feel that you have suffered great loss. Take heart! In this situation, balanced forces are on your side because their task is to compensate bad with good. Things can no more be bad all the time than they can be good all the time. No-one can ride the wave of success all their lives. This is what it would look like on an energetic level if you were to re-attune your energy in this way. Imagine you were attacked, abused, beaten up and everything you had on you was taken, and then all of a sudden, you were shoved a bag which turned out to be full of money. The more you were wounded, the greater the amount of money in the bag there would be.


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